CNY

there are times when you just feel so lonely and isolated from the world.

you know that it's not that there is no one around to care for you.or show their love for you...
you just feel this way.
hmmmm.CNY day 2.and im home blogging away...does it tell you how interesting my CNY is?

gahhhh well.


valentine's day is over.my first ever.hmm.im glad of course.but i spent it with like 10 over other ppl...not exactly how i thought it would be.but i guess.being together is more important than anything else..(though i still thought a bit of time could be squeezed out for some lone time).

welll.cny is honestly damn boring.to think with 3 upcoming tests the following week and me not starting on any at all yet!GOSH..


i hate deadlines.

but isnt it all about deadlines us humans?
hmmmmmmm.

talk to me.
tell me your name~


gonna rot in front of the tv while waiting for the message to come in.period.

why?

this blog is a total rant for me.its good when i dont update.because i will only come online to rant out all my unhappy stuffs.
i seriously seriously think no one reads this blog.so i can jus say whatever i want.


i understand that your family is important to you..really important.
i understand that you're not exactly feeling well.but i dontknow why sometimes i also cant control my own emotions properly.
i understand that you need your rest.but i just wanted to text u and show u that i care.


dear blog.if only u could be a living object and just talk to me yada yada.
oh welllll.
i hate feeling like this late in the middle of the night.
im nt supposed to be thinking so much.but.oh well...just tell me more.seriously.just tell me more.

i would love to get all this shit out of my head.i shldnt even be thinking.but honestly..i dontknow.


screw urself man kx. cant u just be more understanding sometimes?

why bother with a title?

honestly.why do blog entries require titles? .anyway.its like i dont know what to say also.thats perharps why i just said why bother with one.when u dont really need one?yes?no?

anyway.i feel much better..mentally.physically or what-so-ever.
its mind boggling to have so many things going through ur head.


time to let go?

i have the slightest idea.

i hope i am moving away from my emotional bad patch.

it's time.
to recover..
it's time..

ecp

wind blowing on your face.in the middle of the night .by the jetty.at ecp.

serenity.

flyer fly fly

hm.i would be lying.if i said i was not the least bit disappointed...

but i guess all that matters is you being able to feel it...
so what if we didnt take the flyer and dine on it.
so what if the bouquet of roses got thrown away...

well.i guess.this turned out to be a bigger surprise on myself.more than it was meant to be.ahh.hah..

gonna have bread and butter days soon.!=(

i need to rant!!!!!

i screwed up today badly...reallly badly.....
i wanted to talk.but.i didnt have a chance to.
i got misinterpreted.
i got accused.

all just because i forgot that i made several different appointments with different ppl today.
i admit.its my fault.that.yes...i screwed up the dates...

but.i dont know....dont ppl do things wrongly sometimes???

Tell me honestly....huh ???huh???

and.my mum.thinks i am not thinking family..

welll.i just wish i can find a big ocean and dump all my worries into it.and just let it flow along...

i dontknow.......
im torn apart =(

FML..FML FML!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

post-exams

woosh.one whole solid month without updating my rusty blog.
WELL..not that anyone really read it.occasionally one or two of you.which u bothered to ask about me.hahha..thank you ever so.=)

hmmm...exams are over.and it seems pretty much like..i shld be going out everyday to enjoy and do things that i want right?
nopes.thats wrong.W-R_O_N_G !!!

firstly. all the local uni people having exams.ZZ
second. money can be a problem sometimes.ZZ


well..how i wish .(in my own fantasy world).that money can jus fall from the sky into my hands.crappy thinking.gahhh.better work hard for it.agaain...i keep telling myself.i work preeeety hard during school time.than holidays shld rest.and not go out to work..BUTBUTBUT...if i dont work.i dont have $$moolas to spend.pahteooy.

irony much eh?
zz.oh welll.life is such.

and today's gonna be DVD day!!!!!...
one big bag full of DVDs waiting for me to finish them up.haha.plus.dramas which i previously ripped off the net.hahahhhaha..sounds interesting?
if ure interested.please call me up !hahaha....

and.well.4 more days to nippon land for miss.chua. SHIOK LA..
and that probably means 4 more days to one whole week of boredom for mr.sim .haha.
happy and sad at the same time.
keep getting mixed feelings recently.
like post exam and all...

welll.but i always tell myself leh.some people call it self-deception..that
"be it sad or happy.ur day still has to pass.so why dont u pass it with a smile"
whoever came up with this line.
its easier said than done.-KX



signing off.
bored-kx=(