3 years since..........

I was just aimlessly browsing and clicking through my facebook profile when I chanced upon the old note which I wrote when I ORD-ed. Thinking back, it has been about 3 years since then and I must say, so many things have changed.

We have all started studying. Some have finished, some are finishing and most have about 1.5 years more to go. It’s quite scary how time flies isn’t it? Gone were the days when you will tell your friends ‘ehh, lets meet 12noon at mrt station”. Now, you will ask like “eh, whose driving today ah?”. LOL. I think this is one of the most prominent changes so far that I’ve noticed. Well, I guess adapting to these changes means we are all growing up. Slowly but surely. ( or at least I want it to be slower).

I often hear people commenting about “not wanting to grow up”, “not wanting to grad” because they don’t want to embrace their next phases of life. I agree totally but I guess it’s something we cannot escape from so we should like totally embrace it right? Throughout my 3 years of education in uni and my few internships that I’ve did, I’ve learnt one thing. Its important to be happy and stay positive even through shitty times. Most people will probably go “ayee, what bullshit, of course must do this la!” But sadly, talk is cheap. If you really feel and act this way, you will probably feel better. So for now, I’ll look to everyday with a positive light!

Some people come, some people go. Well, I’ve heard so many breakups and so many couples getting together. I feel happy and sad at the same time ( obviously you can infer why from the previous line right?). If you meet the wrong person, then good riddance! It will probably do you more good than harping on it and hurting yourself.no? If you’ve found a great partner, thats great! Learn to cherish them. For myself, I’m glad I met you pohyu=).

I do believe that my train of thoughts and my actions have been different today compared with 3 years ago. I remember saying things without thinking much of the consequences(b4 i joined the army), but not so much now. I’ve always wondered if it is just a phase of maturity or that you learn as you grow and be more sensitive to your surroundings. Anyway, I think its a plus to think before you talk. #truestory. You never know how people will interpret you and its better to “sense” the ground before shooting your mouth off.

>. I think most people probably caught this show eh? This movie really kinda reminded me of the younger days in secondary school where we prank a lot and practically do nothing but play every day (cept jerking off in classes). I kinda had a flashback to all the good old days where we just play basketball and soccer everyday and had a blackjack addition (who can forget all the cornettos and chilli crab nissin noodles). Those I must say were the happiest times in our lives when we have nothing to worry about and you just have to look forward to where you are going to play next and what you’re eating. Fun times. Really.

Well, I’m not too sure what spurred me on to write this note on facebook but I guess it’s just some emotional outlet I guess? Probably feeling more so after catching up with practically every other group of friends this Christmas and festive season. From pri6 class, to sec sch clique, to jc mates army bros and uni peeps. Practically everyone who played an important part in my life =).

That’s it! One more sem to go, before embarking on a new journey. Till then.

festive season

Hohoho! Its the festive season around the corner and I’m in an elated mood. To be exact, holiday mood! When you’re working, every day of holiday feels so good! Seriously! Now I can’t decide whether I want to start working or continue studying.... hmmm.anyway I have 6 more mths of student life to complete before thinking about anything else.

Xmas parties have been great. Cept the office gift exchange which I got a crappy gift. Can u believe it?stress balls? 12 of it to be exact.. Nothing can be worse man. But anyways, besides that, I’ve gotten awesome gifts so far!

I’ve got a quilt (thanks sick pig), earphones(littleworm-akagongong), starbucks card and more to come! (i think?).

Having said all this, it meant that 2011 is coming to an end. I’ve had a great 2011 besides the academic results. Frankly, i still think that results aint everything and everyone shldnt be too caught up with it. But still, thinking that it is not everything and not putting in effort is two separate issues all together. Anyway, 2011 is awesome. I got to know my family better and spent more quality time with them. I’m beginning to understand that the simplicity in life in the form of family time is of utmost importance. I felt it very much when my parents went to China for one whole solid month. Going home to an empty flat is albeit mentioning-depressing. I’ll try to spend more time at home in 2012. =)

Also, I think 2011 is a great year cos I personally felt that I’ve gotten closer with pohyu. Many aspects pointed that out. We really really understand each other better now and I think that we are an awesome couple. As much as I like to show to people that I’m in a great relationship, I’m holding it back cos one of my close friends just had a breakup as well as my sis. Oh well, I’m sure they deserve better people! –to continue, hah.everytime I think about littleworm and me. I’ll smile secretly to myself inside. It really works out like *clap clap* and we just got together. Thinking back, I know her for like what 2-3 weeks? Then we started hanging out more and we got together like less than 1 month of knowing one another? Bullshit to those who say you cant find a great and awesome girlfriend in a short period of time. I’ll be the first to jump out and verify that it is not true!! I guess we are really suited for one another. Heh.

Now i really do believe that someone out there is made for you. For those who are attached, I hope that your other half is the one. For those who are single, I believe that you just haven’t found the right person. Its not any cliché or feel-good line, but I really believe in it.=)

Well, I cant wait to celebrate New Year Countdown as well as the upcoming Chinese New Year!

I love 2011 !! =D

It's been some time

Well, come to think of it. There were many times when I wanted to start writing on a blog again and its always like –typed 3 paragraphs and closed the page cos I didn’t know what to write or whether I wanted to write. But since I have some free time during my internship now, and there’s not much to do FOR NOW, I shall start blogging again.

Blogging- does anyone even do this nowadays? I’m not too sure but I figured out that it is a good avenue for me to just pen down my thoughts. Anyway, I’ve always been a very random person be it on speech or on writing. Probably few years down the road and I’ll look back at this post and go “oh ya, I can remember those days of internship at MICA.”

Yup, Currently I’m doing my internship at Ministry of Information, Communications and the Arts. Well, I’m not exactly sure what it in it for me when I turn up for the first day of my job. However, I’m halfway between happy and not. Happy that I’m actually really doing something that will be able to boost up my resume in the hope of landing myself a better job and secondary, to earn some extra moolas to spend. The bad being that I’m given very adhoc assignments and it’s making me feel like a temp staff. This is not a good feeling and I’m actually contemplating whether to discontinue my internship if this goes on for one more week or so. In my honest opinion, if they really needed an intern –why do I end up having very ad hoc basis jobs to do? Also, Up till this stage in time, I don’t see any learning outcomes from what I was told to be expected. This doesn’t run contrary to my ideology being that I will learn something from whatever I do. I just feel like I’m wasting my time everyday waiting to be told what to do for that day as well as surfing the net aimlessly. To an extent, I felt that they hired me as an intern partly because the department has a lack of manpower now and also, to ease their workload of basic administrative duties so far such that they can go on their annual leave as well as whatever nots. I did consider bringing this up to the superiors and I’m still pondering if it is a right move to do.

Anyways, I just feel like I’m kinda wasting my time now and that I could actually landed myself a better internship elsewhere. I’m not trying to sound like a snob or that the internship at MICA is not good, just that I feel that I am not putting my abilities to the test here and that I could be doing something more constructive. Having said that, I’m quite pleased that the people in my office are a really nice bunch of people cept a few who doesn’t even return a smile when I do so. Oh well, bad day perharps?

Enough of my internship rants!

My life so far has been rather good. This is a simple yet complex statement I would say. Why? I feel that my life has been travelling in the right direction ever since the release of my A level results somewhere in March 2007. Has been more than 4 years since then and I can’t stress any more than realising how important it is to work hard and have a direction in life. It helps. Seriously. The goals and directions helps to guide my life and it has been rather smooth sailing so far.

Apart from my academic achievements, I’ve told myself many times that I wanted something. Set a goal, a date and I managed to do it. With that just adds on to my confidence to move on. It makes me believe that things do happen if you work for it, hard enough that is.

Well, this is a really pretty long post and honestly, I don’t expect anyone to read this as this blog has been dormant for the longest time.hah.

Having said such a long piece, Xmas is just round the corner and to be honest, I cant wait for it to come. This leading up to xmas time always perks me up in whatever I’m doing be it work, slack or whatnot.

Time to make merry my frens.hohoho.!

point of saturation

no.i'm not talking physics.. anyway.i kinda hate that subject when i took it anyway..

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..i just feel like screaming out loud.like.ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.......

i feel more stresssssed up than ever before.hmm.its not about not being able to do it.but .i just feel like there is an invisible obligation for me to score well.or rather.thats what everyone else is thinking about.no?
hmm.i dontknow.

i jus like comin up to this blog to rant.of which...maybe 1 or 2 ppl check in here to read after a month or so.not sayin my blog is the most interesting place.since its all bout complains and yadas and yadas....

school and exams do drive ppl crazy.but i want to look at a brighter side.the one who can sustain through will emerge victorious.hmmm.i still wanna score well.so better buck up more.tskk..

anyway.i just turned 22.nothing to be happy about.except how the day was spent.hm.it was wonderful..like.i feel so loved really.thanks dear..

anywayyyyyy.....its like i want to study but don want to study anymore for the rest of the night.

KX...buck ur ass up! =(

and i suddenly remember

im in serious heavy deficits.=( sucks to be me.

say hi to the blog that's dead.

hmmm.i hardly have time to do alot of stuffs.let alone time to blog.

Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i feel quite choked now actually...this sem aint working out very well.
to be honest.i feel very preoccupied.with what?im nt too sure myself.

anyone who still checks my blog once a month .i really gotta say *kudos to you.cos i myself dont do it that often.(but i doubt there is anyone who does that anyway)..

recently.the weather is damn bad..just blame everything on the weather.lol.sounds familiar?

i feel kinda d actually.ah well..
can play hangman on my blog.anyone who get it right gets a virtual kiss from me.
any takers?

CNY

there are times when you just feel so lonely and isolated from the world.

you know that it's not that there is no one around to care for you.or show their love for you...
you just feel this way.
hmmmm.CNY day 2.and im home blogging away...does it tell you how interesting my CNY is?

gahhhh well.


valentine's day is over.my first ever.hmm.im glad of course.but i spent it with like 10 over other ppl...not exactly how i thought it would be.but i guess.being together is more important than anything else..(though i still thought a bit of time could be squeezed out for some lone time).

welll.cny is honestly damn boring.to think with 3 upcoming tests the following week and me not starting on any at all yet!GOSH..


i hate deadlines.

but isnt it all about deadlines us humans?
hmmmmmmm.

talk to me.
tell me your name~


gonna rot in front of the tv while waiting for the message to come in.period.

why?

this blog is a total rant for me.its good when i dont update.because i will only come online to rant out all my unhappy stuffs.
i seriously seriously think no one reads this blog.so i can jus say whatever i want.


i understand that your family is important to you..really important.
i understand that you're not exactly feeling well.but i dontknow why sometimes i also cant control my own emotions properly.
i understand that you need your rest.but i just wanted to text u and show u that i care.


dear blog.if only u could be a living object and just talk to me yada yada.
oh welllll.
i hate feeling like this late in the middle of the night.
im nt supposed to be thinking so much.but.oh well...just tell me more.seriously.just tell me more.

i would love to get all this shit out of my head.i shldnt even be thinking.but honestly..i dontknow.


screw urself man kx. cant u just be more understanding sometimes?

why bother with a title?

honestly.why do blog entries require titles? .anyway.its like i dont know what to say also.thats perharps why i just said why bother with one.when u dont really need one?yes?no?

anyway.i feel much better..mentally.physically or what-so-ever.
its mind boggling to have so many things going through ur head.


time to let go?

i have the slightest idea.

i hope i am moving away from my emotional bad patch.

it's time.
to recover..
it's time..

ecp

wind blowing on your face.in the middle of the night .by the jetty.at ecp.

serenity.

flyer fly fly

hm.i would be lying.if i said i was not the least bit disappointed...

but i guess all that matters is you being able to feel it...
so what if we didnt take the flyer and dine on it.
so what if the bouquet of roses got thrown away...

well.i guess.this turned out to be a bigger surprise on myself.more than it was meant to be.ahh.hah..

gonna have bread and butter days soon.!=(

i need to rant!!!!!

i screwed up today badly...reallly badly.....
i wanted to talk.but.i didnt have a chance to.
i got misinterpreted.
i got accused.

all just because i forgot that i made several different appointments with different ppl today.
i admit.its my fault.that.yes...i screwed up the dates...

but.i dont know....dont ppl do things wrongly sometimes???

Tell me honestly....huh ???huh???

and.my mum.thinks i am not thinking family..

welll.i just wish i can find a big ocean and dump all my worries into it.and just let it flow along...

i dontknow.......
im torn apart =(

FML..FML FML!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

post-exams

woosh.one whole solid month without updating my rusty blog.
WELL..not that anyone really read it.occasionally one or two of you.which u bothered to ask about me.hahha..thank you ever so.=)

hmmm...exams are over.and it seems pretty much like..i shld be going out everyday to enjoy and do things that i want right?
nopes.thats wrong.W-R_O_N_G !!!

firstly. all the local uni people having exams.ZZ
second. money can be a problem sometimes.ZZ


well..how i wish .(in my own fantasy world).that money can jus fall from the sky into my hands.crappy thinking.gahhh.better work hard for it.agaain...i keep telling myself.i work preeeety hard during school time.than holidays shld rest.and not go out to work..BUTBUTBUT...if i dont work.i dont have $$moolas to spend.pahteooy.

irony much eh?
zz.oh welll.life is such.

and today's gonna be DVD day!!!!!...
one big bag full of DVDs waiting for me to finish them up.haha.plus.dramas which i previously ripped off the net.hahahhhaha..sounds interesting?
if ure interested.please call me up !hahaha....

and.well.4 more days to nippon land for miss.chua. SHIOK LA..
and that probably means 4 more days to one whole week of boredom for mr.sim .haha.
happy and sad at the same time.
keep getting mixed feelings recently.
like post exam and all...

welll.but i always tell myself leh.some people call it self-deception..that
"be it sad or happy.ur day still has to pass.so why dont u pass it with a smile"
whoever came up with this line.
its easier said than done.-KX



signing off.
bored-kx=(

unknown results

just went for the scan today.results are not out yet..
im not exactly feeling very good.
physically.mentally.

im very tired.very very tired..

what do i call this?

yes.whatever is above is inside my brain .now.

at this time! :@

losing it.
so near the exams.gahh.

steam running out.time for some refuelling!!!

rush hour

hahh.random blog title name.cos i have seriously no idea what to put for titles.hmm.nothing to do with the jackie chan movie anyway..

ahhhhh.time's running out.!29th oct is approaching real soon. and yepp.i am barely prepared for it....hopefully i will be able to complete what i want to by then!yesh.its the dreaded E-X-A-M-S..!!

but then again.i have always not hated exams.uhmm.whats the right way to put it.hah.i often see it as a motivation factor to the upcoming holis.so i will CHIONNNGGG from now till end of papers and really enjoy like siao during holis.haha..now i understand what ppl mean by "must enjoy urself during uni holis break" -totally...

gahhh.im taking a short break from studying now.gahhhh.NOTES AND TEXTBOOKS have been my good fren and will be for the next few weeks.

anywayy.yeah.i'm really contented with my life now.very.

thanks pohyu.

=)

motivation

18.5 for accounting was simply awesome.but i had to say.i wasnt expecting any lesser than that actually.hahah.!well.its jus a super motivator to see that though.regardless of how much i aim for.that two huge letters H and D popped up on the screen and i went like ..WAHHH!until the librarian was like"eh..can u speak softer..." LOLL

WOOOOOOTSSSSSSS>
and i think i did great for econs too!let mktg...awesome mannnn!!!!

life's just getting better

the few hours spent over doing econs just made me realise, i am having life the way i want it to be...

its hard for anyone to understand.HAH.but yeahhh..
i am feeling the drive again.its coming on and off.but yes.hopefully this will last all the way till papers.!!!!!

jus completed biz comp assignment 1 ytd.!gahh.submitted over and done with.now its just one more econs test on 6th OCT(happy happy)..project submission.bizcomp assignment2 puii..and its the exams!!

wait.hang on.ppl.i am still sane.haha..i am lookin forward to the exams because i want to prove myself wrong.yes.i will do it.and can do it!
:)

anyway..haha.
me xiaobai and thegirl.=)

the calm before the storm

for a moment like thisssssssssss.

hahh..listening to old songs are great sometimes.well.not say its duper old.but then.its still old like.uhm.during JC days kinda.tskkk..

as the title suggests it all...i can foresee my life turning into a mundane one(not that it isnt now)..ehh.like..let me list it out.zz

-biz comp by this coming wednesday.
-project write up to be done by WEDNESDAY TOO =(
-study for 5 chapters of econs by 6th oct.
-and the upcoming exams by end oct..!

enough of my ranting bout school..LOL.
its the simple things that make me happy.really..

hahaha...
SHOPPING AND BADMINTON ON SAT.
SENTOSA ON SUN.WOOHOOOO.

aweeeesooomeeeeee!
and after that.its work work mode.

prioritise..no1.no.2.no.3